Slave Henry2Serve

I decided to try going down one ring size on my chastity cage to see if it fits better.

I've mentioned this in my diary before, but I feel like writing about it again. I am a fat slut, a bitch to be psychologically abused and made to feel worthless. Far too often, Mistress interactions are almost as though I am an equal. That is not the kind of interaction I deserve. Should a Mistress start her greeting with "Hello?" Sure. But really, the greeting should be "Hello bitch. Strip, get on your knees with your legs opened wide, hands behind your head, and send me a picture." Then she should immediately go to asking why my cock is uncaged and demand that I lock myself. I should never be permitted to where clothes while interacting with my Mistress.  

Yesterday afternoon, I hit the five-hundred worships mark for Goddess Gothica which earned both of us a three-thousand fames bonus! I am really pleased to reach that milestone for her because Goddess Gothica is an incredible Mistress and any slave who submits himself to her is better off.  I am now three-quarters of the way to moving up one more slave level, but it feels like it will be a slog. 

I am within eighteen worships of hitting five-hundred total to Goddess Gothica. I am incredibly happy that I can hit this number this week and allow her to earn three-thousand fames as a bonus.  

I wonder if a trans Mistress is stricter and more demanding than other Dommes?

Even though, thankfully, I am owned by the incredible Goddess Gothica, I see new names of Mistresses and Masters who visited my profile. Mistress Starlett669 and Mistress XXoticqueen are the two most recent names. I wonder if my name comes up in slave searches.

Yesterday, after hitting my 200th worship of the beautiful Goddess Gothica, I earned 1,000 fames and advanced to the piked collar level. While that might seem exciting, in reality, getting to this next level is like losing bladder control while wearing dark pants. I have a warm feeling, but I don't really notice anything. Only after getting to the next level, when a slave can include images in his or her diary is this really significant. Otherwise, it is just a yawner. Right now, I am 6,900 fames away from the next level. It is going to be awhile before I cross the next threshold. 

I could certainly be wrong, (I mean, I'm livestock, not a person) but if an unverified or only partially verified Mistress followed me, then did not come back onto the site for eighteen days, she probably wasn't really interested in me, but rather in what she could financially extract from me.

Sluts on this site need to understand that they exist for only one reason, to advance the interests of their owner. While a Mistress or Master might have a variety of fascinations, generally, these break down into a few categories--pleasure and status advancement. Slaves must expect their owner will order them to perform activities (within the agreed upon limits) that the owner finds enjoyable, not the slave. A slave's happiness comes from the owner's enjoyment and a slave must demonstrate he or she has that proper orientation. 

The second element is either status advancement or economic improvement for the Mistress or Master. Both elements derive from  the Dominant's fame balance and ranking. A slave who produces higher volume fames on a daily basis for his or her Dominant helps their own move up in the Dominant status rankings. Moreover, that same slave is also more valuable to other Mistresses and Masters motivated to further their status too. Fame producing slaves will bring more money to the Mistress or Master at slave auction.

Dominants should not get attached to their slaves. If they see an opportunity to sell one and earn credits they should do so and when a slave becomes owned, he or she must accept that control of the direction of their experience is gone.

Shortly before the wonderful Goddess Gothica saved me from the brutal world of freedom, another Mistress lured me off platform and tricked me into paying her 100 dollars and then disappeared. Even on here, slaves need to remain diligent for the few who are just scammers. 

Less than a thousand fames to go and then I move to the next collar level--piked. Hopefully, the changes in collar levels makes me more valuable to my owner and makes other slave owners want to have me as their own. It is a good feeling to be wanted.

Another idea that really excites me is being used by a mistress for her cam show on one of the chat sites out there. 

Just need to earn a little over 1,400 more fames and I move up to the next slave collar level. 

I spent thirty days in chastity, put there by Mistress Alessa. It was a very challenging experience.

I hate being locked in chastity. You really have to pay attention to how you sit down. I pinched my ball sack again when I sat in my office chair and the pain from that that is like getting kicked in the balls

Surprisingly, no Mistress has demanded that I keep my pubic area shaved and my ball sack hairless. 

I finally found, on my home page, where I could react to the offer of ownership. I declined the ownership offer after the Mistress described her expectations and one of those was a hard limit for me. I really appreciated the offer and it made me feel worthwhile, a sense of value I have not experienced in awhile.

A message popped up in my web browser that a Mistress sent me an ownership request. But I cannot find it anywhere. That is frustrating.

Ball sack circumference is 22.9 centimeters this morning. Locked in chastity is causing just the slightest swelling of my scrotum.

Ball sack circumference is 22.8 cm this morning. Adding this to my diary so Mistresses can see my ball sack fill with cum as I am denied release.

Mistress Alessa locked me in chastity last night and already, I'm dry humping the air. There is so much precum oozing from my cock that it soaked through my underwear and started dribbling down my right thigh.  

Worst time to be locked in a chastity cage right now. I really want to mount a bitch and seed her. 

Mistresses are far too nice to me in conversations. Feel free to use degrading language when ordering me. 

Addressing me as “slave” is boring. Calling me “slut,” “bitch,” or any other degrading term is much more exciting. Moreover, there is no reason to be nice to me. If I message you, feel free to tell me to strip, assume the collaring pose, and send you the picture as a gift before you will bother with talking to me. 

An overlooked element of domination is language. I don’t mean specific words, but rather the language a Mistress demands her slave to use. For example, a French Mistress could demand a slave to only speak in French. It not only shows who dominates the relationship, but puts added stress on the slave by forcing him or her to learn a new language or be punished. 

Just became a leather collar. Now I can be humiliated in the public square and put up for sale in the slave auction. 

Doesn't look like any Goddesses visited my profile in the last few days. Perhaps, now that I am old meat, interest is waning.

Been a few days since I wrote anything. Interesting to see that the Slave Auction is pretty quiet right now. Guess there is not much desire to unload property that does not work well for a Mistress.

Who wants to strip me naked and lick me in chastity?

I am a slut. I finally admitted that to myself yesterday. I want a Mistress to use me. I then want that Mistress to get with her friends and run a train on me. I want that Mistress to pimp me out to others. I am a whore.

Do you suppose there are any Mistresses out there looking to own a slave that they can pimp out to other Mistresses to play with?

Losing control over every aspect of my BDSM life generates a high volume of erotic energy in me. For example, the idea of being humiliated in the public square is exciting. The idea of being put on the block by my owner, when I have one, and sold to another causes my cock to strain against the chastity cage bars that constrain it. I wonder if other slaves experience these same feelings?

I am a bit surprised that no one demanded that I put on my chastity cage this morning. Nice to be able to go to the bathroom standing up and have my cock and balls free.  In the event, a Mistress does decide to put me in chastity, I did bring my cage with me, just in case. 

I wish there was a way to tell who “liked” on of my diary entries

Is it wrong to wonder why Masters would be interested in me?

I did not realize that not being owned makes me less of a slave than others who are owned.

I reached the cotton collar slave ranking this morning. Only thing that really interests me is the public square.  I wish I had some alone time so that a Mistress could amuse herself with me. But that is not in the cards for the next few days. 

Started a 24 hour chastity task for 1GoddessBossy last night. The ring around my scrotum pushes my balls forward causing the sack to rub against my thighs. Sleeping is a challenge because if I lay with my legs together, I pinch my balls and that is like getting kicked there. Of course there is the periodic straining of my penis, trying to become erect be prevented by the small cage. Finally, my cock constantly leaks precum as I experience the frustration of no release. 

Today was a holiday in the United States, Thanksgiving, so it was spent with family today. I, like many other people, are off tomorrow also, but will not have alone time in order to serve the variety of wonderful mistresses that are on here. Hopefully, new opportunities will arise over the next few days.

I experienced my first session with Dominatrix Aly today. Being new, I had no idea what to expect. Some of the tasks were a bit challenging and a few were a bit humiliating, but all of them fit well with what my kinks are. Mistress Aly was demanding, but also generous. I had a great experience.

Frustrating night with my chastity cage. I tried to use the numbered seal, but the cable did not lock down tightly enough and the cage came apart. So, I had to clear my beginning chastity entry and I'll try again tomorrow to figure out a way to make this work.

I am new to this site and checking it out. I hope that a Mistress will choose to humiliate me in photos and then display those pictures for others to laugh at.