Slave Sissygamer

hello mistresses im looking for sissy training and sissy maid training. im into bdsm and have been on hormones for over a year so im well into it i feel something missing and ben wantoing to find a Mistress for a while but all the schools and other mistress want money and i have no problem with paying for the service but after bills are paid i only have a few bills. id like to find a mistress thats caring but strick and i do self training here by wearing my maid outfit and cleaning and tried punishing my self when i mess up the problem is i can stop my self anytime and i dont want to be in control. im bi but afraid of men so along with my sissy training id like to be trained to not be afraid of men. as far as what i casn offer u well im obedient and willing to do what ever it takes to please MIstress despite what it cost me also if its possable id like to be a live in maid in chastitya nd cuffs and collars at all time except for when i shower and go shopping. if there is any thing i missed message me and ill fill it out better or if u have questions go ahead and ask ill tell u honestly. oh its also about guidence.