Slave Sub4femdom

One of the things that is extremely important for me is that whatever mistress is willing to make me her slave gets intense erotic pleasure watching me either in videos I send her or live online, squirming, writhing and screaming in pain while still myself being aroused.  One of my fantasies is of being in a dungeon with one or more doms whipping me while a number of others watch, and they all are in a state of intense erotic arousal.   They are masturbating and giving each other oral sex.  The mistress asks if I want more and even though I'm nearly at my breaking point I scream out "no, please don't stop, whip me harder"

My fantasy is to be sitting next to a woman in a bar and somehow our conversation evolves into femdom.  Next thing I know is she takes a wine glass goes the the bathroom, returns with full of her piss.  She orders me to drink it. I am shaking so much I can hardly do it. She orders some whiskey. We drink and then  she leads me to her car.  We go to her house, she disappears and comes back with dominitrix outfit and a whip and cane. She orders me to stand and take off my shirt.  I am really getting scared but hard I can not stand it. So I do it. Then it is the pants off, I am naked, the shackles, ring ar ou under my balls she takes me down to her dungeon where releases me and she and to other mistress whip me mercilessly until I am crying.  Then they candle wax me all over including my face. I realize my life is changed forever, I can never leave ...

Online I'd like to be forced to put push pins in various parts of my body. To work with clothes pins and clamps. To be forced to drink my own pee. All while naked of course. I'm up for just about anything with a few exceptions. I've had some in person sessions, with candle waxing and toilet slave.  I've been a submissive all my life and have tied to break free of the desires, but I now realized it's impossible.  This is who I am, in need of total domination and humiliation and degradation.