Slave cgut2001

Mistress Gail just allowed me to take off my chastity device. Was a relief as it is awkward wearing the thing. Although I miss being locked up as well. Just a little, but I miss it.

As agreed, Mistress Gail set me free as well. It was a nice short term ownership .

I feel sooner or later I will be looking to be owned again for some time.

Got myself into trouble yet again.

Today's mandatory worships meant I would reach a 'magic number' earning me 1000 fames. I looked forward to this with profound horror. So I decided to stop just one short of reaching the goal. Figured I'll do this as late as possible, so no one will notice.

Unfortunately I bragged about my plan, when chatting with Mistress Gail. This made her trying to push me into doing the worship. The moment I gave in was when she threatened I would get plugged only being allowed to take the intruder out, after I did the worship. So I chose the lesser of two evils and crossed the magic number.

Although I had finally obeyed, Mistress Gail decided my cheekiness would at least need some punishment. Therefore she had me lock up in chastity a day earlier than originally announced. So again my brat-side came to haunt me. Fortunately she agreed, I would not have to enter it into my chastity log. At least sparing me this humiliation. Still kind of tough, as being owned without being locked up is much more pleasant.

Was really nervous this night, imagining what Mistress Gail would set up as a punishment. About 4:15 am I decided to check. Off course she already had set up the punishment.

It was to be 60 swats with the dog-whip. Plus she stated that it was to punish the brattiness out of me. I really hoped for something less painful, but this was at the upper end of the punishment range.

As my butt didn't have a preparation-spanking, the first roughly 15 swats were hell. I had to take breaks in between or I would not have managed. The rest was still very painful, but at least I could bear more swats in between the breaks.

Currently I'm sitting on the cold floor in order to cool down my punishment-surface. But I guess the feeling of a spanked bottom will last for quite some time. Will this keep my brattiness at bay? Maybe in the short term (at least I hope so). But I doubt it will last forever.

Seems I stretched my luck to far. Mistress Gail announced a punishment will be due tomorrow. Actually didn't bargain for that. But it seems every time I act out my brat-side, it gets me into trouble,

Thought I find a loophole when doing my daily worships. Mistress Gail told me the number to do, but didn't explicitly state they have to go to her. So I distributed them among several Mistresses.

Unfortunately she foiled my plan by telling me the worships have to be done to her. So I guess I will hit the next magic number by tomorrow evening. Plus there seems to be an underlying threat she'll lock me up in chastity if I don't behave. So I better be extra careful.

Owned again. Mistress Gail took over ownership to 'comfort me' until the voting-phase in the contest is over. I'm really nervous and my mind is racing with what might or might not happen. I like this state, which I call pre-session-havoc.

Kind of strange, waking up today, without being locked in a chastity belt. Now logging in and not having any ownership-marks on my profile.

At the moment its a brain against heart thing. The heart would like to still be owned, but the brain says, it's better to give it a break, so it is thrilling and will not turn into every day life. Let's see who wins.

It's kind of surreal, remembering Mistress Gails ownership will end tonight at 11:11 pm. Just the last time I did the daily worships, she ordered me to do. So one more thing to end now.

Guess I will have a soft touchdown and tomorrow will be a new day.

Today in the morning, Mistress Gail opened the remote controlled keybox and allowed me to take off my chastity belt. It was a strange feeling. Having been denied access to my intimate parts for a little more than two weeks it felt almost like loosing something, when I took off the steel-underpants.

We had and still have some talk, which helps me a lot. Especially as she allows for a soft return. She offered to lift all the restrictions like 'may not do sessions with another dominatrix' but this would have been a bumpy landing to me. So she kept them up. Not that they would make any practical difference at the moment. But they do when it comes to the emotional effect. I'm still feeling watched over.

With that and with her mark still on my profile, I can comfortably come back to normal, in the time until her ownership will be over.

It have been tremendous 16 days. Thank you Mistress Gail. You managed to hit the right keys every time:

I just noticed, Mistress Gail has lifted the 'May not speak to other dominants' restriction. Feels a little strange. But feels good, not to be "gagged" anymore.

Today I had my last maintenance-punishment, making it a goodbye-punishment as well. Mistress Gail sent me a gift a really touching voice-note. Can't believe her temporary ownership will end soon.

So I did the punishment but uploaded the video-proof with a sad eye. It was a tremendous time. A new experience to me.

Just thank you Mistress Gail for the very special time.

Strange thing, today is day 14 of my chastity. I got used to being locked up. Therefore it may be best to end it when the 15 days are over, Mistress Gail and I agreed on. Otherwise being kept in chastity may loose its edge.

I still like being under her control. She knows how to taunt me and keep me on my toes constantly. Making it a delightful experience even now that chastity has lost most of its sting. I'm still enjoying it very much.

Thank you Mistress Gail for keeping things interesting.

Today is a holiday in the region I'm living in. When I told Mistress Gail, she announced the maintenance punishment, initially due on Friday, would be today. I was a little nervous about it, but it was ok.

When logging in today, she had already put up the assignment. I had to insert a plug, do my bodywriting in front of the camera, finishing with 60 swats with the leather paddle.

Inserting the plug was humiliating, as it made me feel my mistress controlling one more part of my body. But it was not extremely intense.

Doing the body-writing was an intense experience. It's already very humiliating to do this by myself. Doing it on camera for her to see, was tenfold worse. Every single line of it i felt being marked her property for another day. Doing it on video felt like assuring, even encouraging her to treat me as such. A strong feeling, but still causing just a slight pleasant tingle.

The spanking in the end felt more like some caring affection. Not actually a punishment, more a thing giving me the feeling Mistress Gail is caring about me. So in the end it was a almost pleasant sensation. Still a very good one.

Mistress Gail and me had some really nice chat afterwards. This was a good start into my day

Had a quiet night. Logged in to do my chastity-verification.

Mistress Gail ordered me to do yet another bodywriting. Now it is  'locked by Mistress Gail' to show everyone, especially me, I'm not in control of the keys to my belt anymore.

This really had an effect on my. When doing today's bodywriting, a new feeling mixed with the feeling humiliation always present. I felt helpless and at her mercy. Bx the same time I felt unbelievable safe and cared for. She agreed to take control of the keysafe, thereby directly of my keys. She's doing this although she could as well have said the numbered locks are enough. A delightful feeling.

The "downside" is the word 'owned' is gone now. It was the stronger announcement. But 'locked by Mistress Gail' feels better and there would not be enough space to write both in big enough letters. So it's fine the way it is.

Had quite a tough start today.

Sleeping being chained to the bed was no major problem, except for some highly sexual dreams. This was a problem with the chastity cuff, as it started pulling on by balls. But the chastity cuff is not the legcuff.

Doing my early morning chores proved to be more difficult with the steel cable getting in the way more than one time. But this was a good feeling as it demonstrated to me, I'm being controlled.

As usual the first thing to do is my picture for chastity verification. This will never become routine. The body writing is humiliating and will always be. Especially as other mistresses may see my chastity log as well.

Then my maintenance punishment was due. I don't want to go into detail. But some parts were really hard to do. Plus I will definitely prefer standing over sitting for the next few hours, as the finale was 50 with the dogwhip. This will hurt for a while. Unfortunately I found out, there's a size-limit to the video. As the punishment took around 15 minutes the video was to big. It's recoding to reduce the size.

In between I always had some chat with Mistress Gail. This was really good. She was my anchor during the morning.

Then came the cleaning break plus locking back from the cuff into the full belt. Unfortunately this didn't go perfectly smooth. At one point the recording device fell out of its stand. But I managed to get everything done. There was one thing new. Mistress Gail had me put the keys of my belt into the remote controlled lockbox. So I will not be able to access them without her opening the box first. I did this in the cleaning video so she can check.

It may sound strange, but this caused a very comforting feeling. Not being in control can be very relieving. To know she takes care of me. She watches over my most intimate parts. It's really good. Yet it still means, I will still not be able to access them. So it will be a challenge as well.

After a little more chat, Mistress Gail opened the remote padlock on my legcuff. I was glad. But at the same time I was sad, she had freed me of her control. Still I always knew this would come, as I have a every day life as well.

So it was an intense morning. I really liked it. Still floating a foot above the ground, feeling well.

Stupid people do stupid things. There's much more truth to this than I'd ever have imagined.

When about to enter Mistress Gails ownership, I told her about my remote controlled toys. These are a remote controllable keybox, like the ones found on the doors of some Airbnbs and a padlock, controlled by the same app. During our journey I handed control of my devices over to Mistress Gail.

At some point I told her, I fantasized about having to sleep chained to my bed. Not being able to run away until my Mistress is willing to release me. Well one thing lead to another and during today's chat she ordered me to prepare everything and chain up as soon as I will be sure I will not need to go far away anymore. I had to document it in a video for her to check at her convenience.

Just around 8:45 pm I was ready. I undressed and started to do as I had been told.

First I threaded a strong steel cable with a loop on each end around the upper bar of my bed. Pulling the cable through the loop made sure it can not be removed, even without an additional padlock.

Next was some heavy steel legcuff to go around my left ankle. This was selected because it can be locked without the key but not unlocked until I can access the keys. Those are stored away safely out of reach as the cable is to short to get my hands on them. Already had a strange feeling when putting the cuff on. Using just one, not two is because I told Mistress Gail the asymmetric feeling is more irritating to me.

Then the grande finale. I took the padlock, which Mistress Gail had opened remotely quite a while ago, put it through the loop on the other end of the cable and through the eyelet of the shackle. Was really nervous while doing this and kept loosing either cable or eyelet from the open hasp of the lock. When I'd finally managed to get everything together, I clicked the padlock shut.

Right that moment some tremendous feeling overcame me. Feeling stupid beyond words, yet at the same time strangely relieved, almost euphoric. The choice was made, no way back, no way out. No way to avoid the things to come. Especially not tomorrows maintenance punishment, which will be quite painful. Mistress Gail already told me what will be in store.

After having finished chaining my self up I needed to go to the toilet really bad. Should be no problem, as the cable is long enough. But there's one thing I didn't think about. It's impossible to close the door, because the cable has to go through. This was extremely humiliating. Not being able to pee "all by myself" it took quite some time until I could let go.

But his was only the first of my problems. After undressing I figured, I'd put my pajamas on once I finished chaining up. Unfortunately the leg of my pants can just go around the shackle pulling up the cable to my hip. This setup will not work for sleeping. So I'll have to do without the pants of my pajamas.

Having realized I unintentionally signed me up for some extra inconvenience, I decided to get my good night coffee, do this diary entry and go to sleep. Just about to head off to fetch the coffee, I found out another chain of facts. Coffee: A drink you get from a coffee maker => Coffee maker: A technical gadget located in the kitchen. => Kitchen: A room far out of reach when chained to the bed. This was a really unpleasant surprise, but there's no way around it, I'll have to do without my very much loved coffee.

Feeling really stupid right now.

Just a remark in the end. Mistress Gail and I agreed I have some strong bolt cutters in reach. So I can cut myself free, if worse comes to worst. For example if an emergency would happen or the padlock would not open. Doesn't take away a lot of the experience, but both of us considered it vitally important to have some emergency release mechanism.

Did my chastity verification with the new ownership message imposed on me by Mistress Gail. It's more than just a little more humiliating. Can't believe it's 10 days of chastity already.

Yet I'm already getting used to it. Of course my penis still struggles against it's prison again and again. Of course I still feel some frustration at some point. But the feeling of Mistress Gail tightly controlling me with this is gradually fading. It's still there but getting less and less intense. Fortunately she is compensating it by other tings like gagging me here, setting up additional rules, doing maintenance punishments. But most of all by our daily conversation.

Currently this works very well, but I guess this will get more difficult, the longer our session lasts. Mistress Gail and me talked about this already and we agreed it will not be a good idea to extend the session beyond the two week stint agreed. Currently excitement is still high. Thank you Mistress Gail for keeping the session interesting

Went at some slower pace today. Unfortunately this didn't mean I would not have gotten myself into trouble when chatting with Mistress Gail.

I asked her about the we/We and Us/us combinations she uses in chat and in the description of some of her services. She replied the version in capital letters refers to her and the lowercase to the slave. I jokingly remarked the pronoun 'I' being a capital letter, even if used by slaves like me. Then poked some fun on her. Should not have done that. From now on I'm not allowed to use the capital I as a pronoun. Instead I have to write a lowercase i. But she allowed me to keep using the capitalized I for my diary, for the sake of better readability.

I still need to get used to it as typing often follows some long learnt paths. Her order has one very humiliating side-effect. Whenever I use the lowercase I or combinations of it like in I'm, spellchecking notifies me of the error. Therefor it is virtually impossible to just "type and forget" as there is a constant reminder.

The second thing was when asking her for a favor. Today I was exempt from writing 'locked by Mistress GAIL' and the number of the day onto my body for chastity-verification. This made it all much easier. Its very humiliating to have to write the message onto my body every day. Plus it won't wash away or even just fade easily due to the type of sharpie I use. So I am forced to see the message again and again during the day.

When asking for this, I tried to close loopholes allowing for a 'wish granted but...'. For this I used examples. In the end she didn't even look for a loophole. She just ordered me to write 'Owned By Mistress Gail' onto my body for future verification images. Plus it has to be written exactly that way. No deviation allowed, when it comes to capital and lowercase letters. She didn't explicitly state, if I need to add the number of the day. Hope I will be spared the number at least.

Just uploaded my chastity log. Will have to go on with in the session with Mistress Gail at a slower pace than the last days today. Hope to be "up and running" by tomorrow.

The Maintenance punishment today was harsher than expected. Mistress Gail explained to me it included a punishment for an offense as well.

I had mistaken an order given by her about talking to other dominants for an explainer. Therefore she ordered some extra harshness to the punishment. That way she wanted to make sure I will be paying better attention to what she's saying in future.

I had to do 60 swats with the textured silicone paddle. That was very effective in driving her point home. It was far from regular maintenance and for sure it was no funishment. But it still was well within my limits. She hit the perfect spot. Now I'm sore and sorry. Hope I learned my lesson regarding paying attention. I would not like to have to repeat this on a regular basis.

Regarding chatting with other dominants, Mistress Gail and I agreed it would be better to "gag" me. Yet I left the final decision to her. The result is, she took away my permission to speak to other dominants.

This caused a whole fireworks of different feelings. The most prominent coming from the loss of control and even more from the humiliation. Now every mistress, who is visiting my profile, can see I'm gagged. I don't know if they can still talk to me. It would be the perfect storm if a mistress would see it and send a taunting message to which I would not be able to reply. I don't know if it was a wise choice to have asked Mistress Gail for it. But now I have to go through the trouble I pit myself into.

Just did the verification-image for my chastity log. It was a strange feeling. I was able to see everything. Almost immediately felt the cold of the morning on my penis. Still no way to touch, even less to pleasure it. So close and yet so far.

Sleeping with the cage was different from sleeping with the full belt. Quite easy in the respect of not having several pounds of steel around my body, forcing me only to avoid certain body positions. But this came at a high price. In the full belt the penis is forced to point down. When having a nightly erection, this causes a sensation which is awkward but not painful. When the penis is having an erection in the cage, the base ring will pull on the balls. So being caged will include some nightly CBT. I was not used to this anymore. But I could cope with it in the end.

Maintenance punishment is scheduled for today. I'm looking forward with some kind of strange feelings. So let's see what Mistress Gail has in store for me.

Being locked in the cb 6000 is a totally different experience when compared to the full belt.

While the full belt is felt in many situations, today in the cb 6000 I almost forgot I'm locked up in most of the situations. Which made the moments I was reminded more intense. Maybe because of the lower baseline. In the full belt I kind of accepted being locked up as I felt it 24/7. With the cage it only hits me when I'm made aware of it. This may be on the toilet or when having an erection. In that moment I have to cope with being locked up without "constant mental preparation". So it's more a one time experience repeating over and over again instead of a constant feeling of restriction when in the full belt.

I would describe the feeling as 'blissful frustration' as well, but of a wholly different kind.

Just did a recorded cleaning of my chastity-device.

Cleaning the full belt takes 20-30 minutes when doing it with the diligence necessary. Therefore I'm currently locked in my cb 6000. I'll be wearing it for the next one or two days before locking myself back into the full belt.

Did the chastity-verification and chatted a little with Mistress Gail. Was kind of relieved, she didn't order me a maintenance punishment today.

Seems the verification hit another "magic number" as my reputation rose by 501 points. Feels strange to be above 1000. Feeling a whole lot of humiliation, but a little bit of pride as well.

I'll see what the day will have in store for me in my every day life.

Using the manual I sent her, Mistress Gail managed to take over the control of my app-controlled keybox and padlock. She already announced, I will have to place the keys to my chastity in the keybox, after I did a cleanup. This is scheduled to be done on Saturday or Sunday, as it will be half-time.

It's always kind of scary seeing, I will soon be locked without any possibility to flee. At the same time this makes it extremely erotic. Really not having any control, being fully at the mercy of my Mistress is what I always crave for, when doing a BDSM-journey.

Thank you Mistress Gail for offering me this opportunity.

Mistress Gail just ordered my to enter the monthly contest. She had me prepare the video I took of the cilice for this already. I'd hope she would not have made me do. The idea of everyone seeing the result of my punishment is humiliating. Even more the possibility of my profile being branded contest winner. Quite extreme feelings about that. But strangely, arousing as well.

Today's morning routine was a little difficult, as some part of the routine was not there.

When I logged in, there was no assignment for me so far. So I did my photo for the chastity-verification. Just about when I uploaded it. There was a new message in the chat. Unfortunately the chat didn't load the interlocutor-list and the messages. As I just went to find the reason a new assignment from Mistress Gail popped up.

I had to put on the cilice again, then giving me 50 spanks with the tawse, in a kneeling position. She ordered me to count them out aloud, which I'm no fond of. It distracts me from feeling punished. Sounds weird, but it is like this. Any time a dominatrix had me count the number of swats, I counted, but didn't feel the swats so much. Meaning, the feeling of embarrassment usually associated with a punishment or maintenance spanking is completely gone. So spanking becomes just a body thing, losing the feelings usually associated with it.

I never communicated this to Mistress Gail. I know, she would have agreed to change it, even if I had told her when I opened the assignment. But I didn't. For me it was a catch 22 situation. I don't like to interfere with the dominatrix, once the ball is rolling. This would prevent me from feeling helpless.

So there was the option of telling Mistress Gail before taking the punishment, in which case I would have felt 'in control', trading in helplessness for humiliation.  On the other hand was the option of just enjoying the pain, but relinquishing the embarrassment, but still feeling helpless.. I thought the second option would be the better choice.

Spanking myself kneeling didn't work at first. Due to the architecture of my "play-space" the right hand  has enough space, when doing diaper position, but kneeling the wall is in the way. So I ended up doing the spankings from the upside down. As smacking the cilice would most likely have meant broken skin and bleeding (taboos) I had to grab the tawse a little shorter than it's intended to be grabbed. This reduces the pain one can inflict, but it still was enough.

So I administered the 50 spankings. Only to find out, the recording of the video had not started. Double trouble, this would mean another 10 minutes until I proved putting on the cilice plus another 50 swats on my already tender buttocks. Although the end of the tawse hit the thighs so these are actually the most raw parts. But I did the spankings.

Although the marks are more intense today, the spanking didn't hurt as much as it would have in diaper position. So I could bear it, although the second set of 50 got me panting on the way. Could possibly not have done these n diaper position.

In a few more minutes I will be allowed to take of the cilice. They are still very painful, but as they are already becoming routine, it's much easier today already.

Chastity had been going quite well until a few moments ago. Ok, I actually miss being able to touch myself quite a lot, but its more of a chronic background feeling, not an acute desire.

But now it hit me right between the eyes. I was feasting on the memories of Mistress Gails punishment task, when I felt the urge to touch myself. Bringing my hand down without thinking, I touched steel. Suddenly aware of my situation, I became extremely frustrated. I was literally  banging my hands against the front-plate of my intimate parts prison. Yet even this only caused the slightest stimulation. To the effect of leaving me even more horny afterwards.

Don't misjudge. I've had moments like these when being locked up after real-live sessions as well. So I know it, I know I can handle it, I know it will vanish again. But right at this moment it's intense. This  may be the first time I fully arrived in my Session with Mistress Gail.

Public square likes keep dropping in. Yet currently this is the least of my problems.

There was no maintenance.spanking today. Instead when I logged in, I saw Mistress Gail has put on a fully fledged punishment instead. She ordered me to put on a cilice to my left and right thigh. These are thigh-bands with sharp metal spikes pointing to the inside. Standing in them is very painful. Yet still you will opt to stand as moving is even more painful. Not even talking about sitting or lying down, where the cilices will be pressed in by the surfaces. I'll have to wear them for two hours. Additionally she ordered me to put on nipple-clamps.  She didn't tell me which ones to use. I opted for my clover-clamps, as these are some of the most painful ones I have.

After taking a photo-proof I had to do a line writing task about not letting her wait for the manual in future. I don't know, but line writing just doesn't do anything to me. It's neither a like nor a dislike,, it's not a punishment. It was just something I had to do. Actually there were no feelings at all about it.

When done I had to continue the punishment-stack with a spanking. It was 45 with a leather covered fiberglass rod. While still severe, it is much better to handle than a regular cane as there's no risk of breaking the skin. I did the spanking, but it really got me into some heavy panting towards the end. I would not have wanted to do the same with the dogwhip.

After that I would have been allowed to take the nipple-clamps off. Unfortunately sometime during the spanking one of the clamps loosened. So I decided to keep it on until I had taken the photo-proof for my chastity-log. I didn't think about two things though. One was I had to constantly move the chain connecting the clamps when doing the body-writing Mistress Gail ordered me for the chastity verification. Second is Mistress Gail is not the only one who will be able the image in my chastity log. Having to show off with body writing, clamps and cilice is close to a perfect storm for me. Still hoping no one except Mistress Gail will talk to me about it. Still fearing some other dominatrix will.

After that I took the clamps off. A little later Mistress Gail logged in as well. There was some misunderstanding regarding the way I have to do the punishment. As she's the Mistress the mistake was on my side. But she allowed me to fix it by putting on the nipple clamps again and correct the rest with a video-proof,

When this was done Mistress Gail requested the photo-proof of when I put on the cilice. I sent it and she told me to tell her when they become unbearable. At that moment I was on the edge already regarding this point. But the two hours had just ended. Yet Mistress Gail ordered me an extension resulting in a total time of two and a half hours. She then asked me if I agreed to it to please her or to test my endurance. The actual answer was I did it because she told me to. While I would not regard myself obedient, in the context of a session I might sometimes get into a mindset where I quite enjoy orders to bear some pain or discomfort.

In the end Mistress Gail allowed me to take the cilice off. But I had to take a video of me doing so and had to put it up in the session-timeline. Taking the cilice of is a painful thing in the end. They are closed with belt buckles so they get tighter, before coming lose. I was really glad when it was over.

When it was over, Mistress Gail took her time for a little aftercare. I don't know if this is right, but I felt she was impresses I had gone through all of it.

The punishment was a real ordeal. It was harsh and sometimes close to the edge. Yet looking back at it I enjoyed it tremendously. Still hoping I will not have to go through something like this again to soon.

Thank you Mistress

Today was quite relaxed compared to those before. Had some nice chats. Thank you Mistress Gail and Mistress of Pain.

During the day I learned the disadvantage of a plug lubed with tiger balm over a ginger root. If you pull out the ginger root, it's out. If you pull put the plug, most of the tiger balm may stay inside. This came out bit by bit during the day. I had as many as five number twos, all of them during the afternoon and evening. Each time a little bit of tiger balm was included. Each time it burnt like hell. Each time I had to clean my butt and the string of the chastity-belt really thoroughly.

It was no enjoyable situation. The Problem was I could not think, even less feel of this as the last part of yesterdays punishment. So it was just something that really got on my nerves. Hope the balm is all gone now. Yet I doubt as I still have to poop a lot and these bring a strong smell of mint and camphor with them.

My advice to everyone: Better use something you can get out again easily. If you have no other possibility better soak a tampon with hot sauce (carful very painful) than using a liberal amount of irritating "lubricant" on a plug.

In the evening Mistress Gail had me compose a manual for her how to setup the app for my remote controlled keybox on her smartphone. We talked about this before the session and I already bought her contact to go into deeper play with it. The idea is, I have to place the keys to my belt inside the box. Then they will be inaccessible for me. So even if I would break the seal on my belt, I could still not free myself. I'm really looking forward towards this next level of helplessness.

After some pause, the thumbs-up for my public square picture start to come in again. Not as many as before, but still very humiliating.

Now I'll relube the chastity belt (without opening it) and then go to bed. I don't know yet, if there will be a maintenance spanking tomorrow. I may be pardoned because of the state holiday.

The first half of my night was kind of rough, as the aftermath of yesterdays punishment kept me from sleeping. But after a while I could and slept quite ok then.

Just when I had done my chastity-verification image this morning, Mistress Gail logged in and we had a very good chat. It really soothed my soul. She even told me she would not require me to do a maintenance-spanking today. Strange thing I felt more sad than glad about it. Stupid thing, I told her. So she ordered me to do one and it was painful again. 12 on each of my cheeks with the rubber paddle put me in the right mood for today.

Mistress Gail asked me how I feel regarding the chastity belt. Currently it's just the right balance between 'loving it' and 'cursing it. I guess the words 'Blissful Frustration' hit the spot.

I still greatly enjoy my time under Mistress Gails command. Hope she does so as well.

The session has ended quite a while ago and I'm feeling an intense warm afterglow. Thank you Mistress Gail for catching me, when I was about to fall.

Mistress Gail just comforted me. Now I'm feling safe again

Just going through a really bad punishment. I gave Mistress Gail a :-P smiley during the day. She told me, this will cost me. Therefore my mind was on what she may do whenever it started drifting around during the day. I feared she would already have set up a punishment-task when I got home.

I was quite relieved as we just had our normal conversation. I told her about my fear regarding the punishment. This seemed to amuse her and she told me she found it quote 'delightful' to have me quote 'hopping already'.  As the conversation went on I cooled down. Nothing bad would happen.

Unfortunately I overstretched my luck, when I gave her a ;-P smiley. She still kept on conversing, but asked if I have any ginger-root in the house, which I didn't. So she told me to try to get some for tomorrow evening. I was about sure she was intending to do a thorough figging.

Yet I've been to several supermarkets last Saturday as I needed several types of produce. They all had crates of ginger but the roots were dry as a bone. Even if you revive them using water, the feeling will be minimal compared to fresh one. As I wanted to play fair I told her. So she said no need to get some then, she'll think of something else.

The talk went on a little, but it had this slightly alluding tone saying tomorrow something really bad might or might not happen. After a while I couldn't bear it anymore. I offered her she may select a buttplug for me to wear as a punishment right now instead of having to bear the uncertainty what may happen tomorrow. She asked me if I was sure and told me she might be nasty. I ignored her warning. I just wanted to get it over.

Next thing Gail asked me if I have tiger balm. Unfortunately I do. I told her the different irritants I have available. Fortunately she stayed with the tiger balm. She told me to lube my punishment-plug with it. Then I should lube the region in and around my anus with it as well. I did so and the inserted the plug. The situation was that dense, my brat reflexes didn't kick in. Otherwise I would have read, she didn't order me to insert the plug. Of course it was clear what to do with the plug. But hey, I would have obeyed the word of the order. You see how dense the situation was.

Lubing my rear end was already painful. I guess Mistress Gail will have heard me cursing in the video I had to take as proof. But inserting the plug intensified the feeling by several orders of magnitude. There's a problem to this configuration I'd never have thought of. The ribs of my punishment-plug are just a little bit to small for the human sphincter to fully fit into them. This causes the sphincter to randomly contract. Trying to hold back, what it thinks is feces about to fall out. Each of these contractions sent a fresh wave of pain through my tortured butthole. The only advantage, the pain caused by the tiger-balm masked most of the discomfort caused by the buttplug.

After quite a while I felt the pain subside.  Unfortunately this meant, I could  feel the discomfort of the plug in quite a pronounced manner from that point on.

Just about half an hour ago I made a disadvantageous movement. I don't know how, but this caused the tiger balm come back at full force. But this time it doesn't cover up the feeling caused by the plug anymore. So I'm currently experiencing a perfect storm, while waiting for Mistress Gail to allow me to take out the plug.

At the moment I'm almost dying from a combination of pain, embarrassment and feeling stupid beyond any limit imaginable. But in the end I know, I deserve it.

Mistress Gail ordered me to do a maintenance spanking this morning, so I will not go out of check during the day. The implement and number of spanks were determined by rolling dices. I ended up with 13 spanks with the dreaded dogwhip. I went to do the spanking and it really hurt. More a punishment than just maintenance I guess. Sitting, feels a little uncomfortable at the moment. Let's see if this will keep me in check during the day. The good thing is, from this start, maintenance can't get much worse, if Mistress Gail orders me to do another one.

Did the verification image for my chastity log as well. This is still humiliating as all mistresses on the site may see this. And it isn't getting easier. I imagine some mistress visiting my profile and then secretly thinking 'true, he's a twit to stay locked like this. Fortunately I don't know this for sure. That would be much more humiliating

Talking of humiliation. The number of thumbs up for my public square picture rose by two only. So I guess the worst is over.

Today it really is from out of the frying pan right into the fire. Not enough, having to post the picture, not enough seeing other site-users cast their thumbs up. I just once again showed my talent of talking myself into trouble.

I was chatting away with Mistress Gail, talking to her about how humiliating it felt for me to have to write 'twit' on my chest. This really plays with the feeling I have whenever I do a BDSM-journey on the sub-side. I like it tremendously, yet I feel like a fool or twit to have given control to someone else.

When we talked about the possibility for mistresses to change the name of their slaves she told me she was considering several. I looked up my profile and was glad she didn't write 'locked twit'. Unfortunately I told her and now my profile says how I feel. This is extremely humiliating. Even more as I can't change a name my mistress has given to me.

I should really be more careful not to say what's on my mind, if it can be used against me.

Mistress Gail ordered me to post a picture of me on the public square wearing collar and cuffs. Plus she ordered me to install my nose-shackle for the picture. Although the chain on the nose shackle is very light, it already causes quite some discomfort, just when hanging down. With this devious device any slave no matter how strong or heavy will follow his mistress. I'm talking from experience.

Yet this was the easy part. She additionally made me write a very humiliating thing on my chest. This was very hard to do and I hope it will be forgotten as soon as the picture disappears. But my penis kept struggling in its cage while I was preparing the picture for upload and uploading it.

Thanks Mistress Gail

The first night in chastity is always kind of awkward. I awoke several times because my penis was trying to get hard in its prison. Yet no way, the belt prevents full erections. I was glad I did not have to use the spiked insert right away. This would have been hell in its most extreme variation. Still kind of concerned as Mistress Gail hinted, she may make me use it at some point of our journey. Looking forward to this in fear, but, strange thing, yearning for it just a tiny bit as well. Talking of biting of more than I can chew and I fear if I had to take this bite, I might almost choke from it.

Yet the most disturbing moment was less than 30 minutes ago. When I'm on the point of waking up, I usually give my penis a little 'good morning massage' gently bringing pleasure over quite an extended period. This usually doesn't end with me cumming, but it gives me a warm gloom when starting my day. When I wanted to do it today my hand just touched a steel surface no cock that could be given pleasant sensations. This was the first time since my lockup that I really cursed being so stupid letting Mistress Gail have control over my sexual pleasure.

As I'm awake now I might as well do my chastity-verification right away. Luckily I found out a certain alcoholic disinfectant can be used to wash the marker pen off. I did this so now my skin is empty to write on the random number of today. I'm currently uncertain if I should keep the writing or wash it away right after I took the picture.

My mistress just allowed me to take out the plug while doing some personal business. I will have to report to her as soon as I'm done.

Thank you Mistress Gail

When visiting the toilet, I was just reminded of another humiliation. My mistress ordered me to write the message for my chastity log onto my body. I did this feeling humiliated with every letter I placed on my belly. Unfortunate I bought a skin-marker with high water resistance. So there's no way of just washing her "ownership mark" away.

When lifting my sweater on the toilet the message 'locked for Mistress Gail' was shining through my underskirt. It felt humiliating to read she's in charge not me.

The plug is hell too.

Maybe an explanation is needed. I like it when I've bitten of more than I can chew comfortably. So my complaining here is what I'm feeling. But I'm feeling a tremendous kick and enjoy these things done to me

The plug is taking its toll. It's extremely uncomfortable already. It's doesn't help that the plug causes my penis to struggle in it's prison. Plus it makes me drip just a little bit adding humiliation to the discomfort.

This makes it even more difficult to look at the clock as the plug distracts. Mistress ordered me an amount of worships I have to do. The cumulative effect of chastity, plug and worship causes even bigger frustration.

But I've given control to Mistress Gail so I guess I should be glad she ordered me to do this.

Thanks Mistress Gail for taking over ownership.

After a start with some little technical problem's I'm under her control and placed in chastity from the start as well.

About an hour ago she commanded me to insert my 'punishment plug' this is a ribbed plug designed in a way the ribs are just a thad too small for the human sphincter. So it's constantly pressing on it causing quite some discomfort. Yet I'll have to go through it