I am new to this and have little to no experience and no equipment.
We can try ... we have nothing to lose.
Feel free to send a dm.
I was into pain and fap sessions on snapchat until a Master ordered me to whip myself silly. I was brought to a crying point and I realized I loved the feeling of being helpness and in pain. So I want to recreate that feeling.
I am primarily into surrendering control and performing pain acts (mostly whipping and spanking).
I aim to relinquish control of aspects of my life where self-motivation is not enough to someone who cares about me and is willing to guide me to the right path. Thus, I get to get things done and serve at the same time. The master will have to of course invest time and care but in return a good submissive will be willing to serve sexually and be submitted to pain when their master deems it necessary. So, a sub gets things done while dominated, a master dominates and both live bdsm fantasies. A win-win-win situation. Wondering now how applicable this is in a LDR online. Frequent check-ups required, I guess.
Due to privacy reasons I am unavailable right now. I am expecting this to change early December. Thank you for your patience.
I reckon that for a painslut a straight up whipping to tears as a first session is an adequate and strong introduction of a sadistic dom. Then apart from punishment sessions a weekly welt maintenance is adequate.
Complete control over my diet would definitely require a lot of effort and planning from the dom but could be a fine long term investment. Interested in starvation for individual days during the weekend so that i dont pass out during work :P
I want someone to train my body in order to mold my physique into whatever they find sexy.
I would obey a semi-rigorous fitness training to focus on the muscles they want.
After a month or so I will be a better sight for my owner.
Today I cleaned the balcony, a tedious task whose boredom was alleviated by imagining I was cleaning my Master's balcony. I immediately got aroused and put my back into it. I did a great job for fear of being punished.
I would however, prefer to do the task naked, under my Master's supervision with red welts advertising my previous suffering on the hands of my sadistic owner.