Slave voyagar69_

Well I have someone really it is two Mistresses that want to be my owner both have not sent a message to me so far. The one has a pay to speak. Only she wanted to own me. Only the crazy thing is I have it set to Mistress to my profile only I have had two men send me messages. One is gone now and I am talk to the other Master. Which is fine with me. I wonder if so them of the skills I have said yes I would be willing to do allows some of the Masters to send me messages. It is odd to see happen. Only so far I have enjoyed talking to this new Master and his want to train me. Cannot wait to see what happens later on.  See what he wants me to do for him.

Well I just sent the picture to the master that wants me to be a slave. He wants to humiliate me on the size of my cock compared to his big huge cock that he has. I think I'm average size.. I'm kind of wondering about after he's done with me, which I have a feeling that he'll have me do different things to train me to be a more more cooperative submissive slave possible. Then he would auction me off to the highest bidder. Only I have a feeling that he's going to have me change my profile to both Master and mistress or just Master when he goes to put me up on the auction block but I could be wrong. Even though I was looking for a mistress. So it's a little bit exciting and scary at the same time. Not knowing when or who could possibly own me later if I offer myself to him as my owner. 

I do know that in the past I've wanted to try that meaning making somebody happy as they're submissive but then later on them selling me not knowing who would be my next owner. Because there might be somebody I might not find pleasing to me but I have to obey them. So it's kind of excitement and kind of scary at the same time.. 

What's kind of crazy about the whole thing? Thinking about it. I get very turned on just thinking about it. You definitely want to explore. Maybe that option to see where things go and maybe to publicly post it. Actually allowing people to read my innermost thoughts publicly as well as not knowing what could happen later makes me feel vulnerable and knowing that I'm only somebody's property is exciting. 

Crazy thing happened to me on the site. I have my profile set for a Mistress only for some reason I have a Master get in touch with me which he commanded to give him a photo on something that is humiliating so I send a huge dildo in my ass with this short skirt on. Then he wanted a video of me sucking a huge dildo which I did what I was told to do even if he was not a Mistress. I hate to say this I had gotten me so turned on from all of it. Plus he wants me as his slave until he tired of me and puts me up for sale to the highest bidder. Which right now is turning me on as well. Having no control to being sold to some with out knowing it might be later on. I really want to keep talking about this in more detail later. Just could not wait to get home to write this. I think going to be his slave. Take care for now 

It's rather interesting that I know I put a specific thing that I enjoy in kinks that apparently most of the Mistresses that have gotten a hold of me, which I would definitely love to do and maybe I might consider paying somebody to do that. Is the JOI CEI kink it would be nice to do that face to face on a video call. Only I'm not certain if I would but I'm still very intrigued by that. I wish there was somebody that was nearby that actually I could be with to do things with in Colorado which unfortunately most every single woman that has gotten a hold of me has been way out of the country or far far away which saddens me. Because that was one thing that I definitely would love to have but other things as well of course. 

I would like to say to every mistress that has gotten a hold of me. I appreciate each and everyone are the ones that have gotten a hold of me and would like to be her slave only. I wish it was somebody closer. Unfortunately. Eventually after a while I will be able to travel possibly and if things go well with somebody I would like to do that. I just can't do that right now unfortunately. And I definitely love the Mistresses that have had me on their watch list. I guess you could say that are intrigued with me. I do appreciate that very much. I need to add more on this journal because I think it's very important cuz eventually somewhere down the road somebody may be the one I'm looking for and she'll see this and send me a message and I would love that so much. Thank you for reading my messages and learning more about me. I appreciate it to each and everyone. Even if I feel differently right now, that doesn't mean I might not change my mind later about some of this. I have often thought about putting myself up on the slave auction but I'm not certain if anybody would want me because of how I feel about things. Take care and have a good day. Thanks for reading

I've been looking for a while. Still haven't found anybody. I like to be put up on the slave auction. Only thing is I don't have a lot of money to pay attribute to somebody. I'm trying to save enough money that way I don't have to work in to be able to please my mistress all the time whenever she needs me for real. I can use part of the money to take out. Keep the rest making money so that way I can offer it to her to help her out while I am making sure I take care of her needs. So far I haven't found that yet. I would love to hear some feedback if anybody actually is reading some of my diary. I do this not only for myself but also to allow mistresses to know who I am. What? I'm about how I feel and what I think. I'm pretty open to just about anything anal play, even some sissy type stuff if they wish. I'm much rather be used as a sexual object than anything. As they see fit for me, whoever that may be or to please some of their friends for their amusement. Just have to wait and see. I guess. I'm still wanting to do the auction thing but I'm a little hesitant because of that one thing. If not I would do it right away. Thanks for any feedback from the mistresses from the site. Please feel free to get a hold of me whenever you would like.

Wanted everyone that Read my slave diary, I appreciate very much. Plus everyone that follows my profile which means a lot to me because I feel that you appreciate me as a person as a submissive. That means a lot to me so very much.

The sad part about it is I still am working but eventually I'm sure somewhere someplace sometime it will happen. I do know if you're near where I live and you are for real and do not mind doing a video call ahead of time with no money involved. I would love to hear from you. So far I have had a few women I'm still talking with right now. I'm still not completely convinced that their genuine yet. Because I know a lot of scammers usually play a long game with people at times. So I will just have to wait and see how things go. If you're not in the area in your always away, I totally understand.

I do know however there might be a possible person in the future that somebody said that I would meet. She's a psychic and she does drawings of people's soulmates so I'm assuming with her being my soulmate that she might be the type of woman like I'm looking for in a female lead relationship like I've been looking for. Apparently I'm supposed to meet her a certain place in February so we'll wait and see what happens. Only I am still looking and I still will keep looking and I hope that the mistress is that do contact me will be understanding and patient to make sure that I feel comfortable with them and get to know them once I do. I just want to say thank you very much for each and every one of the dominant mistresses that have actually got a hold of me. I do appreciate each and every one of you as far as your time and the wonderful gifts that were given and received from me.

I guess that's all I have to say for now, so I will hopefully do this a little sooner than I have in the past. I'd like to do this on a regular basis even after I find somebody. So that way I can share my experience with any of the mistresses out there that follow me. Because I know it's always interesting to see what happens. It's kind of like a bondage. Love story I guess which can be bound and romantic at the same time. ❤️???? If anybody would like to send me a message about this diary, I would love to hear your messages. I do appreciate that very much. It means a lot to me just to get to know some of the dominant women on the site which means the world to me. Because I feel that when they reach out to me, I feel that presence and dominance over me a little bit and I appreciate that very much. Thanks again! From voyagar69

I definitely enjoy writing on my slave diary. I think it's a good way to explain more about who I am as a submissive man. For me being a submissive man doesn't mean being a sissy or for being walked all over it's about giving myself fully to the woman that I'm with. To do what she wants with me. I don't mind doing certain things like being kind of a sissy to a point. Only have definitely would love to be treated as an alpha type sub. Basically to use me as they want me in bed with them but sex is not the main reason. It never has been.

I also like other things too. I think I just love having a strong woman That's in power over our relationship together. Only. That doesn't mean that I'm weak. I just like to well long to her and make sure I take care of her needs and try to learn more about what she loves and enjoys from me on a lot of different ways. I'm not sure if that's clear or not or understandable. I can be very naughty and definitely like to be punished because it gets me going. Plus also being told some things that I might not always like to do to push me. There's a lot of things that I enjoy. I've had the fantasy of the woman I'm with. Makes me do things with another man that she wants me to do to him or with him. Only I'm not really certain that I would feel I would enjoy it or not. Only I think the fact that being tied down or restricted and somebody doing things to me without me being able to stop them. That's what gets me excited. Plus I'm hoping that there's somebody out there that enjoys watching me being taken advantage of like that. Personally, my thrill on a lot of it is being not in control of the situation sometimes. I've never had that yet and I'm just thinking exciting and thrilling.

I don't know because I've never experienced that. Plus I've also got a lot to learn so I'm hoping that I could be taught by somebody to mold me into a submissive pet for them that they will cherish and enjoy but also do things that she knows that I will enjoy making her happy. Anyway, thanks for reading my diary. I definitely get excited about that too. Especially women mistresses that are on the site that tell me things that I enjoy because they enjoy doing that to their submissives. The thought of being locked up bound or at a woman's feet makes me feel that I belong to her and she will use me the way she wishes which I love.

I guess I need to redo this again. Basically, I've said this before is what I'm looking for is someone that I can have a full-time relationship in the female lead relationship I'm looking for somebody that's close that's not too far or they are a ways. Maybe finding a way of getting together to be a live in submissive to be with all of the time when we're together in private. I know a lot of people women mistresses want money as a tribute which I can understand. My thing is until I know that the person is real so I'm asking for a video chat first and then maybe I can do that afterwards but eventually helping somebody out in a relationship just like any other relationship only. It's in reverse of what their traditional old school male female relationship is. Only the woman is the one that wears the pants so to speak. If she feels that we will work out as more than just a couple I'm hoping that she will ask for my hand and marriage just like a guy would for his girlfriend in a traditional relationship. Only with a ring and a collar

I'm definitely going to try the slave auction. I don't know what will be like but I'm kind of curious now to know that somebody is actually going to buy me. I'm not sure how it's going to work out . I've often wondered what it would be like to be sold.  

I like to check out the slave auction when it's up and running. I'm not certain what you have to do after that though. If it involves money, I'm not sure about that. I want to have somebody that actually I can be with face-to-face person to person. It will be interesting to see who bids on me when it's up and running. I'm curious about how it works or will work

Well I am still looking and hoping to find a Mistress that I can please her move in with for her needs and to help out as well. Like a couple. Plus maybe if I am pleasing to her and if she loves me and I love her. She will make me her husband wife I guess in a FLR. I would be fun to be the one that she makes the choice to marry and collar me as her property and husband wife sub. Meaning if we do things she would be the one to make chooses for us. So far I have had a few asking me only no 100 for sure they are for real. If anyone is reading this in or Around Colorado Springs if we can meet to find out about each other. I wish this other site I am on had this Dairy. I hope to talk about it to everyone that follows me to learn about my life as a sub when it happens. How a I feel and think of things I have done to me or me do for her. 

Zara only not sure how to chat with you it will not allow me to do so. 

I'm definitely very curious about the slave auctions. I'm not sure what it entails. But I find it very fascinating. I'm not sure what kind of currency they used to bid on the slaves. It would be really fascinating for me to put myself up for auction originally and then whoever decides they want to bid on me. That way choosing is a completely out of my hands and I'm at the mercy of the auction. Wish me feels like a true submissive. After that they could probably put me up for auction if they choose to do so later. Which would be the same fate as what I would originally have happened to me. Only I'm not certain the whole process. I guess it's for this fame I guess for the dominant on the site

If anybody thinks that I should do that, I would love to hear from you. So just send me a message and let me know. I'm just curious about responses from mistresses from the site

Well so far I still have no one yet. Only I did post a cum log for the Mistress that do follow me now. I hope they enjoy it. If any of you would like me to do something for you please send me a message to tell me. Take care to the one that follow my page 

I see that Mistress NeoGoddess follows things I write down on my Dairy and other things. Only cannot send a message because she not verified yet. Plus I added a suggestion for the surrender now. With subs that want to a true cum dump writing in on the chest with a video recording swallowing their cum load fully. Then stating that they are a good cum dump for his Master or Mistress. I thought it would be a lot of fun for the ones that want to explore taking a load or have thought and ever have done it yet 

Well I have been talking to somebody for a while. The only thing is she's far away and I can't move there right away unfortunately. I think we'd be perfect for each other for sure. I told her I just want to make sure we keep in touch and if she finds somebody before that I'm okay with that because you know that's her decision for us if we are together in FLR. I know everything I just talked about doing really gets me turned on a lot. I think she would definitely use me. Well both sexually and cleaning and doing things around the house. She said that she would call for me if she was stressed out and needed to use me. I would definitely love and enjoy that plus being naked all the time would be wonderful. 

I see they have added a new thing called the cum log. I think I will later on try this. Sounds like fun to me. I do that at times on my adult cam site. I think the men enjoy it more then anyone else. Still looking for the one that will just right for me. I might have someone soon to please and to be owned. I think some think it is all about being one way. Only I feel it is something that is very special to give myself to a woman that I can care for and she will as well for her pet. 

Well a while I thought maybe I might have someone that would love and enjoy me as her sub. I was really getting excited. Only I do not want to bug her too much. I have a feeling I know why maybe only not sure. I am still looking or maybe she will read this and find me. Hard to say really if or when it will happen. If you look for me I am out on a lot of sites. Maybe she will send me a message after reading this. I am sure we could figure it out if she still wants too. Take care to everyone of the wonderful women on the site. 

Well I thought someone I know wanted to be with me. Maybe I was wrong not sure. I would say something only not sure about it at all. Wait and see I guess still looking and hoping. 

I want to say I might have found someone I hope wait and see how things go. I know she is on this site only I met her on an other site. I she had told she had been reading what some of the things i was looking and she told me she was a well. Plus some other things that I really enjoyed hearing. Just thought I would add this so other know before someone get a hold of me. I do not mind talking nothing wrong with that. I still want to get to know others as well. She understands how I feel which does mean a lot. When I am fully with somone I belong to them only. Unless they wish me to please others for them.  Take care please feel free to say hello. 

Well I hate to say I found a wonderful woman that wanted me to belong to her. Then I was fully honest with her about something and I have a feeling I might not hear from her again. 

I might have found somebody living in Denver that I can be with. The only thing is I don't know what they look like. Only we have been talking for a while. I think there are a few things that we had some connections which is a good thing. Wish I definitely would like to have whoever I'm going to be with as a submissive. 

It sounds like she's definitely into making her submissive as a sissy. I have definitely liked having an anal play. I've never experienced pegging just yet but probably will when we meet face-to-face for the first time. I know for sure that she definitely wants to put me in chastity and throw away the key. Only I figured she might enjoy seeing me releasing my load on my face for her satisfaction. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what's in the store for me later on. Only. I definitely want to make certain she's definitely legit. I know I've heard a few people say that it's somebody asking you for money to be owned that might be a sign that could be a fake. If I'm going to be with somebody long-term, I will definitely help. It's always good to help the person that you're with, especially If you're in a relationship together.

I'm hoping in the next few years I'll be ready to go so that way I can be with the person the entire time and not just part of the time.

So far I've been doing fairly well with Miss_krishna that I know. So far I've only messed up one time. My latest task was to shave my entire body from below my head. Which I've never done before and I know somebody else had mentioned that to me before. Because they wanted to clean slave to be with them. It took me a while because I had to do a few things beforehand. I'm still hoping and looking for somebody in Colorado springs to make happy. So if you are in Colorado near Colorado springs, please feel free to contact me. That way we can get to know each other. I think she's been pleased with my obedience so far except for me wearing only a skirt and heels which I actually added more than that to the photo.

I definitely know that I will mess up at times. I just need to be trained to do things the right way.the way my mistress wants them to be done. Which I am ready and willing to handle to make myself better for my owner. I try my best to be as pleasing as I can. Because that's what I want to do most please My mistress that with. Only thing is I would like to have somebody that I could be with when we're in private together.

I just want to say thank you for the encouraging words from the other mistresses that are on the site. The way they like to wish me the best to find the right mistress for me. That means so much to hear them say that. It keeps encouraging me to seek and find the right one for me. I have to wait a certain length of time if it's somebody out of state. Unfortunately. Which makes me kind of sad because I've wanted this for a while now. I do appreciate all the words of encouragement from the wonderful superior women that are on this site and others as well.

I wish I had a Mistress right now. Only I am still wanting to be with this wonderful woman that has a man right now. I think she is

the type of woman that might get into being a Dom for me when needed. Right now I am on my Adult cam site waiting for more people. 

I definitely wouldn't mind meeting a wonderful mistress to own me and keep me safe and use me anyway she sees fit. I haven't added anything to my slave diary for a while now. I've been very busy so far. There is a woman that I definitely would love to be with and be at her feet only. She has somebody in her life. I think now that I've gotten a little bit more forward with her. She's not too happy with me right now. So I'm still looking for somebody special to fulfill the needs that I need. I was certain if she was into This type of lifestyle like I wish that she would be. Maybe later on with her or somebody special. I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens in the future. I'm not planning on being with anybody for a while yet unfortunately unless they are here locally. 

I'm still pretty new to this website. I'm hoping to maybe meet a dominant that will be a part of my life for a long haul. I'm not really looking for a sessions to be honest. I'm looking for somebody that I can make happy with me being around. So if you do read this, please feel free to get a hold of me. I'm always open to talking with some of the dominants on the website.

I do love this idea so people know what dirty thoughts I have. I know for sure I would loved to be forced from a Mistress to suck of some man's cock with seeing who it is.